Falling

I sorted the books on the shelf
You knocked them down
One by one, sometimes like a waterfall
But will I put them back
Or let You rearrange?

Song of a Semi-Free Man

Shadow boxer running from the fight
Two wrongs never make a right
Pretending not to give a damn
Just another semi-free man

I know the answers, I've read the book
But too often I don't give it a second look
When I'm pressed up against the wall
With nowhere left to fall

Still dreaming of life unleashed
Surrender to be released
But until I'm ready to let go
I'll never know

Waking

I feel the pressure of their gaze
But is it only my reflection
On when I was happy and all together?
Left to guess I'm usually wrong
Long to be lost in endless production
But what did I really do before I stopped to stare?
Numbers and someone else's words on a page
Now I am awake - to birth and not remake.

Red

Feel my rage, break my fall
Don't believe in limits or don't believe at all
I saw the car crash, I heard the roar
But some things shouldn't hurt anymore

No words but thoughts escape
Civilization just a necessary facade
The window dressing is black and cold
But the burning melts all pretense away

Would I smash it all
To echoes of my own applause
That build and die
Leaving me red and alone?

Cross

Still after all I remained
With all the loss and all the shame
Couldn't look at you again
Without the grounding of the Cross

Running from being found
Trying to be different and profound
I never felt my feet hit solid ground
Until the grounding of the Cross

All the crimes of humanity on display
Blamed on one man on one particular day
Envy, murder could be washed away
With the grounding of the Cross

The logos murdered for petty gain
Turned the chaos on its head
Revealed forever would not end
With the grounding of the Cross

You paid for me without remorse
With the grounding of the Cross.